I am changing this BLOG into a personal diary; a collection of ideas that I frequently ponder; a sharing of some of my experiences; and maybe a few confessions (but don't expect many,.....I may never be that free).
Last year I made an incredibly difficult decision. I ended 20 years of daily meditation practice. It has been a few months since I have formally "sat". I concluded my practice had become a mechanical function of my ego; a hypocritical demonstration of my spiritual aloofness. It became obvious to me I had created a negative environment of rigidity and obsessiveness.. I became aware of the walls I had built around me.
Another factor in my decision revolved around "AH-HA" episodes that occurred in meditation last year that really focused my understanding of my individual consciousness' relation with "Consciousness". This deep, subtle awareness transformed my questions, confusions and my quest for direction into instant clarity; a spontaneous thought of...... : OH!!!!! SO THATS IT !!!
As time passed I became aware that I had stopped searching, seeking, pushing for answers. I noticed NOW was becoming more real; more than a philosophical concept. Gradually I began to know that for me to live as lovingly as possible I had to tear down the walls I had built.
Join me as I step into what may be the final phase of my conscious experiences.
Last year I made an incredibly difficult decision. I ended 20 years of daily meditation practice. It has been a few months since I have formally "sat". I concluded my practice had become a mechanical function of my ego; a hypocritical demonstration of my spiritual aloofness. It became obvious to me I had created a negative environment of rigidity and obsessiveness.. I became aware of the walls I had built around me.
Another factor in my decision revolved around "AH-HA" episodes that occurred in meditation last year that really focused my understanding of my individual consciousness' relation with "Consciousness". This deep, subtle awareness transformed my questions, confusions and my quest for direction into instant clarity; a spontaneous thought of...... : OH!!!!! SO THATS IT !!!
As time passed I became aware that I had stopped searching, seeking, pushing for answers. I noticed NOW was becoming more real; more than a philosophical concept. Gradually I began to know that for me to live as lovingly as possible I had to tear down the walls I had built.
Join me as I step into what may be the final phase of my conscious experiences.
